Fabulousity Series-

Dear readers
A new segment of my blog called : Fabulousity Series will now commence..
To start of: A celebration of life,love , friendship, amazing food galore !- Aziz's B-day Soiree.

Location : Delicious - Bangsar Village II, Kuala Lumpur
29/01/2009
Time: 8pm(somebody was fashionably late than usual)
Famous faces/Glam Squad Farie , Kast Rya, Raja Ezwan, Zaki Kassim, Adly M Ibrahim, Mizie, Xyrole Hisham and alas the birthday boy-Aziz

It was an amazing night, so much to catch up with. Zaki, Xyrole, Mizie ,Aziz and Me, we used to be housemates. There were loads of sweet memories; laughter & tears. But gap and distance does help to strenghten our bonds. It was fun to see them again. Aziz looks amazing in that black deconstructed bombared jacket ala Commes De Cargons.My first KL trip for 2009 is very much a productive and a memorable one.

Food was perfect, I had nasi kerabu(finally breaking my no carbs rules) it's absolutely delicious, we had so much fun, bitching and poking fun at each other. I was later 'tagged' much in the facebook by our official photographer of the event cum party planner Xyrole Hisham. Somebody commented that we look like celebrities - Kudoss!!

I later proceed to bunk in at Aziz's apartment (finally, after so much persuasion by Bree Vander Kamp ...ahaks) we continue chatting and I was catching up with my friends over the south china sea through facebook chat( I'm missing them dearly...) Aziz was kind enough to loan all his CDs collection for me to upload in my Itunes & Ipod(yeyy..more songs from Madonna, Janet Jackson,Brandy, Kathy Perry,Britney and uhhhh..Bananarama..I know right..so 80's of me..face it, those era rocks!)


Thanks for the fantastic night. Look forward to see you guys again...

XoXo

Happy B-day Aziz !

29/01/1977 (so u do your math!)

I just want to wish you a happy merry b-day, may you are blessed with so much love, endless prosperity, eternal success and peace & happiness always...
Stay gorgeous & stay fabulous! You are the best-est friend a gurl like me could ever asked for, I am blessed to have you always :)

XoXo

I Heart Reading Books

I Heart Reading Books

Yey..I've done reading the novel Twilight by Stephenie Meyers, I absolutely j'adore it!
I've been procrastinating reading and finishing the book , plus my expanding work load in the office, my new social circles and my utmost devotion towards my family and my friends, I just don't have enough time to read(excuses? yeah I know *sigh*). It was made to a movie book of the year, and I watched the movie a few times(thanks to pirated dvd galore in my country)Although, now I feel that the book is way better than the movie and I should have not watch the dvd over and over again(as they wont miraculously change the ending for my own sake!) all I can say. I heart Edward Cullen, the Isabella Swan should have been me. I am the original Bella Swan...aahahahaha!
I don't want to blog too much about that book, too much review will just spoil it all. I'm sure I'm not the only one who is so into it out there(say few millions more other bloggers that adores the book as much as I do)

My next book list of the year 2009

Fictions:

New Moon - Stephenie Meyers
Eclipse - Stephenie Meyers
Breaking Dawn - Stephenie Meyers


The Time Traveler's Wife - Audrey Niffinegger
I read the review, it's fantastic. One of my must read book of this year.


Sex And The City - Candace Bushnell
I know, I am so 10 years behind the trend. I was watching dvd reruns of all the seasons, so I though, heck. Since I watched the series already, why don't if I read the book too.

The Devils Wears Prada - Lauren Weisberger
Everyone Worth Knowing - Lauran Weisberger
Chasing Harry Winston - Lauren Weisberger



All the 3 novels has been in my bookshelf for 2 years now, I bought them because of the glossy and attractive covers. I have to start reading them. The movie was fabulous, I'm sure the book will do justice too! Thats All *in a cool, emotionless tone ala- Miranda Priestly of The Devils Wear Prada

Non Fictions

Wikinomics: How Mass Collabaration Changes Everything- Don Tapscott & Anthony D Williams
Tipping Point- Malcolm Gladwel


Just to proof that I am not all just a pretty face, I do read such books too. It's a must for me to get ahead in my career, it's a need for me to constantly upgrade myself with new knowledge. Sort called Sharpening The Saw sort of speak. I bought the books when I was in KK, attending a Sales Training Boot Camp by a famous Sales Guru.

Finally an authorised biography of my ultimate Icon. Madonna : Like An Icon by Lucy O'Brien, which I bought last year. The Book was the first hardcover edition and it was purchased as a b-day present for myself. It's absolutely going to be a collectors item .




I hope I can start reading them soon and meet all the above target of the list above
I wish myself luck!

XoXo

If I Told You That...

The day when I realize that, friendship can sometimes turn into infatuation. Deadly and a dangerous turf for one to venture into it, so please think them over before you are planning to mess around with the sacred of ‘friendship’

The rules of the land : You play with fire and you’ll get burn. A lesson that I am so immune too, but yet I am still prone to these. Why you may ask? Taboo has always been so seductive to me. I always have this silly idea that this is the right kind of wrong. Maybe I've been watching stereotype Hollywood chic-flicks romance too much, you all know the story plots : when friends can be be lovers, or maybe I'm just hopefully romantic always.

I’ve been holding my desires and my lust (no?), and I can’t stop the urge anymore, I don't know if my feelings this time around is genuine enough, or is he just another rebound case of mine. All I can think of, I enjoy every second of my time with him, I feel connected to him: I awaits the time that I would spend with him . We talk, we laugh, we make fun of each other, we bitch about others and we share all the similar interest in musics,movies and tv series. We even finish each other sentence. Very rare for me.
We never seems to be out of topics or lack of anything interesting to share with. I just cannot bare this feeling of anxiety of not knowing how he feels about me and all these just somehow slowly taking over me. I just need to express how I feel now or never...

Being the true believer of honesty as the best policy I am. I confront the certain particular someone of my intention. He was of course, predictably shocked with my then words that coming out from my truly self:
You know how much I admired you, and ' heart' u loads. Now,I like you more than a friend, was wondering if it’s possible that you would share the same exact feelings as mine.
I stare deep into his gorgeous pair of brown hazel eyes.

This intervention was done over a course of our now daily routine of –dinner together- a perfect time for. I have it all plan it out perfectly in my head. I just need to fine the courage to start it first, and now I've done it. Phewwww....!!!

It took while for him to digest (mind the pun) my words, but we all due respects, he looked at me, and with a surprise and almost chill to my bone

“ I like you as a friend, and I don’t see myself with you or anyone else. It’s my nature and I don’t see relationships in the near future”

I would rather lose a love than a friend, that’s what I told him before. I still believe what I said. Friends will love you, no matter how shitty you life can be, how fugly you would end up, and how fat you can be. They will always be there, no matter what.

Before I heard that sort called ‘rejection’ speech from him. I really thought I could have faint or induced in a coma or even getting an early stage stroke, as I watched he uttered each words from him through that : Oh... so beautiful lips of his. I am completely calm. No cold sweats, no fast beating heart beat, no fake migraines and no I want to "kick you hard in your butt" reaction:

I was genuinely cool with his respond. I have this huge heavy weight lifted up off from both my soon to be supermodel shoulders of mine

We continue our most heavy conversations to date, and I wasn’t expecting the level of maturity of this young guy had. He seems to have it all figured out. From the very moment when I first smiled at him and my very first say ‘hi’ to him, to the chemistry that I tried my very best to influence on him, and my obvious special treatments to him. I guess, he can see it coming from my emotionally fragile self. It’s all about sooner or later. I just have to know how he truly feels about me, about us, about everything that we’re doing now.

I really thought it was absolutely going to be disastrous, but I was wrong.

Now I got my answers, I feel relief. It wasn’t too late for me to move on with my life. But I am so much glad that we have a mutual understanding in every sense. I just have to keep my distance and careful not to fall in that unwanted emotional pit. I adore his companion, and I admire him so much that it sometimes hurt me the most, when I know I cannot have him. No matter how much I want him. We can only be friends.

Rejection is the best aphrodisiac; Madonna once said. It’s absolutely true. You will always attracted to something that you cannot have. It makes life more interesting. It makes friendship and relationship more colorful.

We have high expectations in everything, inclusive of friendships or relationships; we have been customized to expect nothing less. Is definitely the way to go, or you will always end up disappointing yourself. You need to learn to accept things as it is, compromising can be something you will need to adjust. Nobody is that perfect anymore, perfection is over rated. I don’t think I can be those people who strive and hunger for perfection, I want to learn, I want to feel pain when is necessary. Isn’t pain that best lessons for human, for us to feel more humble to appreciate life more, less feeling superior isn’t all-bad at all.

This is just another station that I’m passing through, and it’s not the end of the world. I have more stops along my journey; it’s a matter of how I shall face them.

I remembered to say these to him: "Please don’t ever try to stop me from ‘loving’ you, because, sooner or later I will stop and moving on. But I will always ‘heart’ him in my own ways and I know he would too'' and I don't think it's a too much of a request. I don't feel pathetic at all. Because I know, my heart is genuine
He nodded and smiled at me. An agreement has been made. I just hope, there's no awkwardness from this moment onwards. I know I don't want to feel that weirdness when I'm around him

My dearest friend of mine, we will have many days to go, many more laughter and probably tears to share, many places for us to venture and travel together. I promised. We will get the chance to get to know each other more and more, we will see the good and evil side of ourselves , we will have some bumpy rides a long the way, but I know we can get through it all.
I pray for your happiness every seconds of my life, I truly hope that you will be successful someday.

When somehow, one day if you do fall in love, I hope you would fall in love with someone who truly deserves you. Because, it would be a complete fool for them for not to realize how fabulous you are.

XoXo

If I Told You That - Whitney Houston Feat George Michael

Chorus-
(If I told you that) I wanted to see you
(And if I told you that) I beg to please you
(If I told you that) I'll always keep you
What would you say (if I told you that)

-Verse 1-
Now tell me how you feel if I told
You that I have feelings for you
And would it be so wrong to say
What's on my mind
I'm sorry I have to
We were friends but with time
What I feel deep inside for you has changed
But I'd give up on love, if I thought
That it was untrue for you

-Chorus-
(If I told you that) I wanted to see you
(And if I told you that) I beg to please you
(If I told you that) I'll always keep you
What would you say (if I told you that)

Verse 2-
I know that we were just friends
But what if I decide to bring something in
I hope it won't offend the trust
We have 'cause I don't want this to end
If you think that we'll lose what we have
Then I'd just rather stay (rather stay) the same
(I'd rather stay the same)
Cause I don't wanna choose
Between two of the most precious things to me
(tell me)


-Chorus-
(If I told you that) I wanted to see you
(And if I told you that) I beg to please you
(If I told you that) I'll always keep you
What would you say (if I told you that)

-Bridge 1-
If we take this chance and extend
To each other romance
I hope it would be
The right thing for you and me


-Chorus-

(If I told you that) I wanted to see you
(And if I told you that) I beg to please you
(If I told you that) I'll always keep you
What would you say (if I told you that)


-Bridge 2-
Would you be there for me
Could you dare to hold me
Will my feelings leave me
Lonely if I told you

Chinese New year 2009 - The Year Of The Ox(Niu)

Chinese new year this year, I found myself visiting my friends houses. I was wearing red sal scarf, red top, team up with my black cardigan, loose Levi's jeans, comfy red Converse, I look the part , absolutely Gong Hei !! With Gary( he was wearing pink and orange stripe shirts that doesnt look all gay at all) and Jacob (was wearing an orange and bright brown shirt: absolutely gorgeous: coz the shirt was his b-day gift from moi) as my partners in crime, it was indeed one of my best CNY visiting ever.

We start visiting the famous chinese business mogul, Ting's open house at his upcoming new fabulosity 4 Points hotels in Kuching, we later proceed to a few more houses. I was basically bloated with good foods that practically served at all the houses we're visiting.

Absolutely lots of great glorious food, Carol's (one of my friend) laksa's sarawak is my favorite. Lots of free booze, free mandarin oranges and of course at this age of mine, I was really surprised I am still getting lots of angpow(red packet with money inside symbolised prosperity and wealth) it was one of my best day ever...thanks guys

An article I found from 123chinesenewyear.com

Chinese have a unique way of representing the New Year through animals. They have 12 different animals to represent each year of the 12 year -cycle and the order remains the same throughout with the year of the rat beginning the cycle and the year of the boar/ pig ending the same. As the Chinese year 2008 was signified as the year of the rat, the following year, 2009, is going to be the year of the ox. Chinese New Year of OX, 2009 will fall on January 26th and will mark the 15 day long festivities beginning on the said date and going on till the 9th February.

Preparations for the Chinese New Year of Ox, 2009 will begin months in advance so that the celebrations be observed in the highest magnitude and splendor. As the different years of the 12 year cycle are characterized by different animals, people born on the different years also feature different traits and characters and most often then not, they are believed to be influenced and inspired by the animals of the particular year they are born in. With this article on Chinese New Year of Ox, 2009 we strive to hold forth the interesting characteristics and features of the Ox and how babies born in this year can be expected to display similar traits.

All years ending in an odd number are Yin and the ones with an even number ending are considered to be the Yang forms according to the Chinese methods of the calender cycle. Therefore the Ox year 2009 will have Yin forms along with the character of the Ox. Ox characterizes a dependable, patient, methodical and calm, hardworking, materialistic as well as an ambitious character. The Ox years so far have been 1901, 1913, 1925, 1937, 1949, 1961, 1973, 1985, 1997 and now 2009 followed by 2021 (according to the 12 year cycle).

People born in the Chinese New Year of Ox, 2009 will preponderantly have the below mentioned traits in their character: Leadership qualities, dependable, great organizers, loyal, patient as well as strong and responsible. They are also some of the best people one can have as colleagues in the work place as they are believed to posses strong work ethics and display their creative side as well, especially when it comes to decorating their home.

Since the people born in the Ox year are also trusted to be reliable and logical, people generally turn towards them for suggestions and guidance. Their honesty and eye for details also helps them to prove their worth both in the workplace as well as in their personal lives.

However there are a few negative traits associated with the character of the Ox that also is reflected through the people born in the ox years. Attributes like being narrow minded, stubborn, with low public relations skills and also very far from being emotional are generally associated with people born in this year.

With these and many more fascinating elements, Chinese New Year of Ox, 2009 is just about to arrive. So get set to welcome the year and have a very prosperous New Year ahead.

More Facts about the Niu year, and for those who like me, born in a snake year(1978)
Your sign is Snake.

Snakes are the Ox’s best friends and vice versa. You are both slow and deliberate and your energies similar. So this coming Ox year for Snakes will be beneficial, productive and personally valuable. You will be back in your native groove and enjoying the type of languid mood in which you always concoct your best schemes and are able to carry off projects that needed finishing or topping up. Last year really slowed your progress to a slithery crawl. But the Ox appreciates your quiet sense of esthetics and is always there to help you realize your dreams. Love is back too. You’ll be feeling more romantically intense than you have been in awhile. Reason? Some of your money and chronic health troubles are behind you. Do remember though that the Ox is a demanding old character and does not tolerate a lazybones. One has to show a willingness and an ability to labor under duress in Ox years and even though the Ox favors you and considers you his pet, you will still have to put your pretty little nose to the grindstone and get cracking on projects and problems left undone in previous (less benevolent) years.

Petty health issues will no doubt preoccupy you this year. Skin ailments (which are your most common complaint) may return in more pernicious forms. Keep your eyes peeled for moles that change color and/or painful reddish spots that appear out of nowhere. The former usually need to be removed immediately by a dermatologist. The latter - the red patches - could be heralding a spate of shingles which needs urgently to be treated with anti-virals by a medical specialist. Both are manageable, but must be dealt with post haste.

If a bird flies into your house, do you panic and think someone will die? If you step on a crack do you still believe your will break your mother's back? If you break a mirror, are you certain you will have to endure seven years bad luck? If you reply is yes to any of the above, then you are afflicted with superstition. Of course it isn't terminal and cannot be treated with antivirals or antibiotics. But an excess of superstition often besieges the psyches of Snake people and causes them excessive worry. You are given to other worldly experiences. Sometimes you actually know about things before they happen. This year that quality may spook you and make you more fidgety than usual. Snakes need a spiritual outlet. When they don't have one, their subconscious works overtime. This year, get your mojo working in some sort of spiritual way - religion, metaphysics, mediation or chanting etc. - just so your conscious mind can focus on making a living.

The Ox wants to see you happy. He or she is your best friend and biggest booster. You're on the same wave length. But you are more beautiful. Oxen are more useful. If you must fall in love this year, you might want to choose an Ox partner. Oxen are going places for the next 12 years. An Ox spouse would be an real asset for a luxury hungry Snake person.

Time Goes By So Slowly....

For those who waits...yes, it does goes by slowly when I wait. It's exactly 60 hours before my next b-day(Number 3-1 to be precise!) I am all anxious all over again, when I turn 30 last year, I had the biggest melt down of my life. I felt old, useless,fugly(thats fucking ugly for some) but it all turn out fabulously! My last 30th b-day was my best ever so far.
Maybe, the reason was, like any other years of my b-day celebration, secretly I was expecting so much from it. I always end up disappointing myself. Sad, but yeah, it's true.

Holding a grande cup of cappucino Starbucks cup(gosh, I should really start boycotting this soon..no!?), seating comfortably at the waiting area of KIA(Kuching International Airport) , departing to KL in less than 2 hours. I'm all so cool about this trip. I wasn't really excited about this trip, as I'm accompanying my dad for his specialist appointment at the Selayang GH tommorow. My energy and my main objective for this trip is channel to these, I have more time on my side updating my blog. My baby mac, will be my loyal companion during these whole trip of mine.

As I was saying about the art of waiting. I am a well verse in this, in life we practically waiting every single moment. We wait for the flight to arrive, we wait for the dreadful working hours to end, we wait anxiously for the new movie that we all excited when we're watching the gung-ho looking trailer in the cinema, we wait for our important calls or sms from the love and admired ones. We wait...and the more we wait..the longer it feels. Is just something that you can't avoid. But i'm trying my best to be more preoccupied with myself these, and try not to wait too much.
There's a certain healthy amount of negativity, voidness, emptiness, loneliness and anxiousness if you dilute yourself by waiting ...

Maybe in life I should learn to not to wait, just be in control of everything. I should reinvent myself isn't that we all should do? change and reinventing one self and turn into a more upgraded self.

I dont want to wait anymore, If I feel like doing something , I'll do it. If I want something, I'll make it, I should make it happen..no more waiting...

X0X0

Seperti Yang Kau Minta

Seperti Yang Kau Minta - Chrisye

maafkan aku tak bisa

memahami maksud amarahmu

membaca dan mengerti isi hatimu

* ampuni aku yang telah

memasuki kehidupan kalian

mencoba mencari celah dalam hatimu

reff: aku tahu ku takkan bisa

menjadi seperti yang engkau minta

namun selama nafas berhembus

aku kan mencoba

menjadi seperti yang kau minta

repeat *

reff2:

aku tahu ku takkan bisa

menjadi seperti yang engkau minta

namun selama nafas berhembusaku kan mencoba
aku tahu dia yang bisa

menjadi seperti yang engkau minta

namun selama aku bernyawa

aku kan mencoba

menjadi seperti yang kau minta

My Favorite Mistakes

I'm digging this song

My Favorite Mistake- Sherly Crow

"I woke up and called this morning

The tone of your voice was a warning

That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in

I looked at the clock when you creep in

It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone

[Chorus:]Did you know when you go

It's the perfect ending

To the bad day I was just beginning

When you go all I know is

You're my favorite mistake

Your friends are sorry for me

They watch you pretend to adore me

But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover

She'd be unlike any other

Until your guilt goes up in flames

[Chorus:]

Did you know when you go

It's the perfect ending

To the bad day I'd gotten used to spending

When you go all I know is

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever

Even when you stay together

I don't need forever after

It's your laughter won't let me go

So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell

You were the only one

That I ever loved

Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?

Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Dear Baby Mac

It's so easy for me to fall again this time, and its definitely easy for me to make the same mistake that I did many times before.

Maybe I never learnt any from them all, I maybe I chose to be this way. Maybe it's always something attracting me to do so.

I am beginning to feel the loneliness that I want to escape from. But it never left me , that ghost still haunts my sleepless nights, that unwanted emotions of mine stills loyal to me. Always by my side when I need them to be. I chose to love and never expecting anything return. If thats the only way I can be love again, I shall surrender myself to it. But would it be worth it? would it be noble deed If I do so? once again..I am actually expecting something...I am uncertain with what will be the outcome of my life, I don't have the future all figured out.

I am somehow immune to these drugs of mine, I am no longer the victim of my own choice. All I need right now is to learnt to let them go. It's a chance that I need to take, it's a risk that I'm willing to face..

But when ..and how...?

I need or I have to...Move on
XoXo

Friends/Teman/Peng You/Amis/Shinyuu

Friends in English(obviously)
Teman in Malay
Peng You in Mandarin
Amis in French
Shinyuu in Japanese
No matter what language you speak. It's a universal terms ...



It's almost half an hour exceeding the schedule, still stuck in the meeting for my company upcoming CNY Annual dinner this year. Again, due to my flamboyant gay-self. I am once again in the committee. This time as an official emcee, I've done event and concerts emcee before, but as like any other tasks I've done. I have high expectations on myself. I always want to do my best in everything. Closeted perfectionist I am.

Jacob texting me again, confirming our lunch later today. I smiled to myself. I quickly realized, it's almost 2 months now. I never felt so fabulous ! Jacob and Gary my new friends from Kuching that I like to mention specially in my blog this time around. They have been with me since, it's going to be a lasting one. For some , It's impossible to love someone so quickly, but I have to admit being me. I have so much love to share . I not just love them, I adore both of them. In fact, any of my friends. But, I'm kind of picky when it comes to making friends. As stereotype as this may sounds. But I am attracted to similar interests, crazy and funny people. People who outshine themselves with genuine and honest heart. People who doesn't have hidden any agenda, and people or someone that you can see a connection from the very first glance and the very smiles that that you exchange. The chemistry has to be mutual, and you know that in every heartbeat of yours, when you are around them. They make you feel like yourself, they make you feel comfortable and safe when they are around. I am so blessed that I am surrounded by many of these beautiful souls that disguise them self as my friends. They are in fact my family.

I'm glad last year, among the highlights of my life was the ending of getting to know these two beautiful souls . An addition to my legions of beautiful family.

Jacob and Gary, I won't reveal much of these two guys . What I can say is They are both with distinctive different characters, with amazing personality traits, bright future ahead of them, outstanding hidden talents(one is a chef to be, the other is so much of talent in him that someday he'll be become a renaissance men):with so much life and love in them that they are like my own angels. Not many people I've encounter with such an amazing heart that make me heart them so dearly at every moment I'm with them (somebody probably smiling when he/she read these now) , and on the look department, these two gorgeous guys that i'm current 'dating' are definitely making most girls(probably boys alike) jealous with me these days.

This is like threesome but in a good way and not the sexual kind.

Anyway, I've been making so much excuses to meet Jacob or Gary almost every day, there will be a lunch , or dinner, or movie, or countless brownies munching session at Bing!(absolutely heaven-lish!) lots of Chai Tea Latte @ Starbucks. When I'm with them, it's all about having so much fun. We laugh , we make fun of each other, we fool our self silly, we mook each other like we're kids.
We discuss and talk about everything, even serious matters. They have been very supportive and motivating at times when I need them and they'll do it in a heart beat.

We like most of the things(music, movie genres, books, tv shows ) We shares similar and utmost passions in food. We have been going around the town, in search for delicious foods to savour ourself.
Every time when we're around each other, we sync and jive, is like we have our own secret codes when we're together. The dynamic is overwhelming sometimes that I'm paranoid that someday I might lose them(seriously I don't want that to ever happen). It's a good kind of obessios. Most people will disbelieve me, who would of though that I would be this way someday(I am myself still in awe on my new found self!) Platonic self, loving someone with all my heart and not expecting anything in return, oh..well a Chanel bag wouldn't hurt either (kidding...)

I would rather lose a lover than to lose a friend that I know someday that they will be there for me always.

The best part of these, it's just a beginning of an amazing journey ahead. I appreciate much , and I'll definitely cherish...

Morning 21-01-2009

Jacob wrote a poem about me in malay. I'm touched. U Know I Heart You More Every Day...

Neyna Radzuan

kehadapan sahabatku
ingin aku ekspresikan betapa
indahnya dirimu bagai warna-warna pelangi disebalik awan
jernihnya jiwamu bagai air pantai destinasi disember nanti
bagai bintang-bintang di malam buta
bersinarlah indah senyumanmu sentiasa
merdunya engkau bagai melodi-melodi lagu Sheila Majid
betapa hebatnya dirimu bak idolamu, Madonna
pernahkah dikau tahu?
tiada berbeda dirimu andai tiadanya nyata sempurna yang engkau mahukan
kerna engkau tetap engkau, sempurna seadanya, jiwa dan raga
manusia yang selang bulan dahulunya tiada ku kenali
tapi erat persahabatan ini tiada pernah ku sangka
engkaulah "Chanel" yang sebenarnya kepada kami, saudara-saudarimu
sentiasa indah dan tiada tandingan mutunya
sentiasanya dirimu selalu
neyna radzuan
~j shaun

p/s That's a definitely talented poetry writer.

Datai Resort Langkawi, December 2009(Here we come!)

Polaroid or Poladroid Anyone?

This application is fun to play with, since the digital camera is so available and affordable these days. The classic polaroid cost more comparing to the digital camera. But since this application is free to download (compatible for both PC and Mac) I'm having with it now...
here u go guys(my digital enhanced poladroid pictures) you can google -poladroid and download the application for free.

Here are some of my friends from Kuching, Jacob Shaun and Gary Francis...both young amazing guys...cis...I'm so freaking hot!

My 2009 Wish List

Chanel Bags( I Want These so Badly...)


All the above by Chanel





All of the above by Christian Louboutin

All the Prada bags above