My Favorite Mistakes

I'm digging this song

My Favorite Mistake- Sherly Crow

"I woke up and called this morning

The tone of your voice was a warning

That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in

I looked at the clock when you creep in

It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone

[Chorus:]Did you know when you go

It's the perfect ending

To the bad day I was just beginning

When you go all I know is

You're my favorite mistake

Your friends are sorry for me

They watch you pretend to adore me

But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover

She'd be unlike any other

Until your guilt goes up in flames

[Chorus:]

Did you know when you go

It's the perfect ending

To the bad day I'd gotten used to spending

When you go all I know is

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever

Even when you stay together

I don't need forever after

It's your laughter won't let me go

So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell

You were the only one

That I ever loved

Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?

Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

You're my favorite mistake

Dear Baby Mac

It's so easy for me to fall again this time, and its definitely easy for me to make the same mistake that I did many times before.

Maybe I never learnt any from them all, I maybe I chose to be this way. Maybe it's always something attracting me to do so.

I am beginning to feel the loneliness that I want to escape from. But it never left me , that ghost still haunts my sleepless nights, that unwanted emotions of mine stills loyal to me. Always by my side when I need them to be. I chose to love and never expecting anything return. If thats the only way I can be love again, I shall surrender myself to it. But would it be worth it? would it be noble deed If I do so? once again..I am actually expecting something...I am uncertain with what will be the outcome of my life, I don't have the future all figured out.

I am somehow immune to these drugs of mine, I am no longer the victim of my own choice. All I need right now is to learnt to let them go. It's a chance that I need to take, it's a risk that I'm willing to face..

But when ..and how...?

I need or I have to...Move on
XoXo